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The Gift

these words are raw
but I must say them

you have opened
a raging torrent of emotions

you have made me face
a very painful past

you have held me while I trembled
and lost myself in your embrace

now, I have finally come to peace
I had been insecure and frightened
by what our love might mean

I stopped struggling against the growing well
of pure light and rightness in my being
that is shining from you

I finally realized that I have kicked and fought
against embracing that love wholly
because I would never be the same
it was kind of like dying

I know I hurt you, my Love
as I cursed and flailed
against embracing the light
that you shone on me
your love was a major invasion
on my very ordered world
it has been frightening
coming to grips with the sheer
magnitude of the emotions
I have for you, terrifying
in their strength and intensity

I am finally at peace with myself
you have taken my broken spirit, held it tight
taken my pain, blown it away
taken my love, returned it to me, made me whole
you have given me the greatest gift of all - myself
I am finally powerful
with strength and serenity of being

not even you can take away
the gift you've given me
my heart can never be broken again
not even by you

you have set me free
and I have come back

My Love,
I will not fight you anymore

you are part of me now
we are indivisible
I feel you at the core of my being
holding me together
I know now it is real
not my imagination
it is your thoughts and feelings
swirling in my mind, heart and soul
the depth of our connection
fills me with grace of being
you are touching me every moment
of every day, as I shine your way

I cannot ever run away from you
as you can never leave me
no matter how many miles are between us
you are right here with me
inside and around me at all times

our road has not, and will not, be easy
but the alternative is unthinkable
- your words, My Love
which seared right through my soul
demolishing all resistance and doubts
the beauty and terror
of our togetherness
fills me with awe

my life has been spent
teetering on the brink of an abyss
a horrible black chasm
that I now know
was you not there

this is not a piece of brilliant poetry
but I have read it over and over
and can't find other words
it is my soul on the page
that will not keep quiet anymore

I have tried to craft the images
into something evocative, ethereal
but this time, truth refuses to be neatly packaged

this is about as naked as a poet can get
but I know I am safe in you
this is me, my true words of love for you

without you, I would never have gotten to finally know myself
for that alone, I can never thank you enough

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